Why i never get much sleep...
Or why i don't want to sleep...
or why i am afraid to sleep...
or why i can't sleep...
I dream.
My dreams almost never surround a pleasant issue or scenario, and this distresses me. I sleep during the wee hours of the morning and hope for a good few hours of sleep so that i can recharge myself for the activities of the coming day. However, recently i've been having those dreams again and it is seriously getting to me. When i dream, i cannot seem to get a good night's rest. It's like i am literally experiencing what's going on in the dream. And always, my dreams leave me with a highly emotional aftermath. For the rest of the day, i am filled with the emotion that ran through me in the dream. It is exhuberating and overwhelming. Even more, the emotion is mostly always an unpleasant one - mostly of loss, dread and fear.
Just a few nights ago, i had a dream of a girl. Call me cheesey but it put me in a scene like those movies where two people want to be together so much but it just never happens until it's too late. It just felt dreadful that i was going to lose something again. It was like sometime ago, when i had these feelings for a girl and i didn't tell her until it was far too late to start with anything. This dream brought back memories that i keep hidden and embedded inside me, so that it may not cause me further harm as a haunting from the past. This dream just brought it back, and with it also bringing on a new and even more devastating mimicry of my past.
Now i'm having a headache and a heartache to deal with.
Dreams...i wish that one good dream would come true to me. For now i lay forlorn against the depths of my imagination and subconscious...
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