A stained sanity
An essence to be tempered, as if i were metal, a boiling heat has ridden me of my innocent sanity. Lest there be a solace for a tortured mind and a desperate cure for this curse that forces me plaintifly to bid my slumber goodbye, i would be marked from this moment on with the seal that brings the fate of those in utter madness. Though there is no spontaneous transformation to such permanent, short-lived psychosis, there is the spark of demon words who threaten to take over me and cause me to inflict upon myself an untimely death. For the demons, they speak of the horror that awaits me in the coming hours. And as i should pass to the darker realms of the human existence, it would be as if the netherworld was opened infront of me and upon me the hordes would trample, lending only to the crushing of my mind, resistance and resillience, lost to the darkness.
Insanity be not the pain that i fear, and death be even less painful. For in death, i am emotionless and senseless, yet it is only the pretense that scares me and not the incidence, thus there be nothing of pain and nothing of fear: death be a mere imaginary torment. Insanity should leave be senseless, though my emotions would be rendered wildly stirring and as a swarm of bees defending the hive, i would have to be lashing against foes of non-existance and demons of insinuations. Though it would be no such thing as pain during insanity, for i pay royalty to pain only while i'm sane. But the deterioration of my mind is my largest concern. A thousand nightmares may happen within one night, lest my sanity be broken i fear nothing. But this acursed seal, it eats at me and it binds me to the muck of a dreadful damnation, and thus i should be within those who are in-line to share my inpending doom.
But i shall choose not to lay in misery, and i shall seek a cure. Where be you now, my hope? i shall seek you, and seek you until i find you. It is only until i perish my sanity that i shall lose my will, and that day has yet to come...
Move along.
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