If only i had a chance...
I'm feeling it right now, more than ever, something that's been hanging over me for a good few months. Though, there isn't someone that could make it go away, or perhaps, it's just impossible. In retrospect, i've been trying to tie myself up with a loose rope and now it's starting to show that it's not working very well. I don't think i can find a rope to contain myself anymore - i've never tried to hide it so long. But it seems, things will still have to stay like this because it seems impossible that the circumstances might fall in my favour.
I wonder what will happen. Will i find someone else? I don't know. In search of something that's so hard to find, i'm almost at a loss of candidates and dearly aware of my nearly lost hope. It's even more dreadful, when i can't afford to tell the truth to that one person that i found. I shall continue to live in vanity of my emotions for this one person, and perhaps it'll go away. Though how ironic should it be that i know it wont. I forget almost nothing, even more on this matter, which of every encounter i have kept close to myself, i doubt it will be an easy experience of letting go - again. That is if i ever manage to. Maybe i'll just end up without anyone, because i've lost all my hope and desire to this one...
How i wish i could get closer
But the consequences shatter me
Perhaps i shall just wait till my ruin
So there will be no chance of hurting her...
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