Lonelines' Great Wish-reloaded
From the deep there comes the dark. No, rather from the deep there is darkness. Only light shall be the one that travels to unviel its mysteries. It's no mystery that people try to look through a protective shell around me. They see distorted images of my true self, ones that would never be able to completely tell my story. But in reality, who really does know me in full? I suspect i've only been telling part of myself to my community, because there's still not a single person that i can partake fully the responsibility of being my caretaker.
From past experiences with others, there have been people who summon great respect towards themselves and seek authority as their best companions. But, i have denied them the leasure to plore inside my wills and motivation. I have denied them access to my nature as they are none other than those who just wish to weild my skills and abilities to harm others, and give full advantage towards themselves. This brings nothing of a cure to me, they only make it worse by filling my conscience with guilt. Those who seek this see only a hardened wall. They may huff and puff, but this house is not falling down to the prying of wolves. The wolves shall die of their own desperation to seek the black pearl within.
Those who seek freedom are often my part-time companions. They have been restricted of their will and unable to nurture their own talents to fulfill their needs. Denial is the greatest envoy of hatred. If you hate yourself, you will be lonely indeed. Unlike I, who is born into this reality, they don't seek the solace that i lack in cheer, but then seek their solace in vengeance towards themselves that they often mistake as others. One victim adds to the pool of blood that they have stained themselves with. But it is not will that they often lack, it is the proper guidance. I cannot give that to them when they have been so tightly bound by their own passion for hate. Thus, I am still by myself, not knowing when the next freedom fighter shall turn up. To them, i am only a last resort when all else fails, which is never the fact.
Those with hatred i always detest. Though part of my psyche holds back on my vengeful spirit, i still lurk in the grips of anger and neutrality when dealing with this group of beings. Despite everything that i do, i condemn their acts of evil towards this world. Though the difference between good and evil is often the act of taking sides of human beings, there is still a great gap between making life better by causing the least possible harm and destroying everything in your path to gain what you want.
Those that are lonely, they share my adversity. We are a type, that all shall peer at and try to solve. But the truth is, there is nothing done by just observing and just calculating. There is only something done by helping and aiding. Words are nothing if they are not taken to action.
The lonely soul is very divine, but for the lonely heart it is hard to survive. Empty as we are, we seek to fill ourselves with meaning. I seek myself, the one that's final and shall be at peace in the end.
Still, i seek to be needed...
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