Here without you
Day to day there's nothing else that i can wonder about, it just keeps on coming back to me- you. Everything revolves around that essence that i found inside of me when i was dancing with you in the rain; when i was playing with you on the bedroom floor; when we were watching that movie in the cinema; when we were running around the carnival pointlessly; when i was with you. A pointless motive fills up my thoughts and that is all that i can think of. There's no other way! How shall i go on with my own self, so lost and feeling so despised. I feel like thrown out garbage, so useless and unwanted. I'm a waste and that's it.
The dawn breaks but there's still no sign of me regaining my spirit. I haven't slept for days. I've just been stuck in my room, with no one to cry to and no one to turn to for comfort. I found that i've developed a retarded organ- my heart. Even worse, i've lost my soul! It's fled away to a new place where it has use. I've lost meaning and even this despair no longer holds any meaning in life. It's become a habituation, so much that i've had to resort to watching sad love stories and sorrowful songs to represent my own pain.
The radio is my outlet and the television is my medium. They both send me to another place, a place in my mind where i can still feel, smell and live! My body remains lifeless as if i'm only carrying around a shell. The internet helps me send my messages of bad luck and sorrow throughout the world and the responses that i receive are such a relief! Pain? Sorrow? What are those feelings? Nothing is important anymore. There's only something for me to kill and destroy- me!
That's what i've become. Just because you've left and gone, i've become this abandoned shell of wreaking sorrow. Those around me just stare and don't know what to do. "What's there to do?" they all say, "there's no hope left. He's gone." I've been left out, left behind and never retrieved.
All because you left me. You left me!Where have you gone...love. Where have you gone?
Love.
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