wHy do people wish to be alone? i Believe there are too many reasons to account for. bUt still it's a mystery that has a million dollar answer. wHy? tHere's always some reason to it.
cOming from myself, i wondered why and why and why...i Wondered about this question all the time.k bEcause i feel that i just felt i wanted all the time for myself to be without anyone else, just to be alone. tHere was a time when i thought people were more understanding about others. sOmetimes i just wished that people had a more open heart. iT seems like we live with dozens of layers and barriers around us, but that would not be a nuisance if it wasn't for the fact that many do not take the effort to brake them down so that we could all live and communicate with much more ease. pErhaps, the world is split into many different personalities just for this purpose: to create an environment where everyone plays a role to achieve a harmonious communication within society. tHat's why i felt like just living by my own, i felt like nobody was understanding enough and nobody was just open enough. i Had this perspective that people are nice and somewhere deep, down inside of them there's a person that would be an angel. yEt, i have found only a few that i can add to this bunch of angels. dOes the world really suck that much? i Know more than a few persons who have this perspective: they just think that the world is a place full of misery. i Know that i've gone into bouts of misery myself, but i get out of them eventually. tHough what a fact it is that i manage to feel such a miserable feeling that people around me are just not understanding of myself. uH-huh, it's kind of depressing.
i Wonder who's big idea it was to put weirdos in a bunch of isolation. i Don't know about anyone else, but i've been called an odd ball more than just once, and it's just beginning to become just one time too much. i Do not know whether i'm getting more frustrated by it or more angry because of it. wHatever it is, it's more frustrating than anything else that i'm encountering. tHere are so many stigma's around in this world that i think we could gather them all up and make a minefield where the entire world's population would not be able to get through - we'd all be blasted to bits by the mines on the minefield. tO think that christianity teaches that there's hell and heaven in the afterlife, while here on earth i think it's a mixed dose of both elements. wE just tend to think about hell a little bit more. aNd i'm really wondering why that negative elements in our life always leave a greater mark, why can't it be the good things? i Hope that positive psychology can manage to eradicate this practice or cognitive dilemna in human beings. wIthout all this depressing thought i think the world might just become a better place. bUt then there would be no more downs in our life, what a paradox - just like philosophy.
eVery dawn of the day brings a new sun rise and that's hope for all of us to just live our lives with a little more energy in us. rAther than just thinking it's just a load of crap because there's only one sun that we can see from earth, you can think everything seems to be brand new and push everything away. hOpefully that past will not come back to haunt you, as in get your neurons fried and end you up in the hospital for a psychiatric disorder. kEeping your memories in tact serves for a purpose - to make sure you know that you actually exist. tHere could be a copy of you somewhere in the world, but without any conscious memories i think you just wouldn't exist. yOu'd have to have a consciousness to think and hopefully that thinking mechanism is going according to the correct terms of conduct, or you'd be labelled as doing misconduct and a dysfunctional individual. tHat's the think you know, i just wonder who set all these rules that we should follow? wHy is something good and why is another thing bad? bEst keep these things in check and not get swindled by your parents again for their number one reason of: because i say so!
yEah, i admit i'm not a big fan of paternal instinct of a generation that gets so stuck-in-the-mud with their old habits and so ironically become children of their own age by knowing little of what's the newest in's and out's of society. dOn't you wish your mum and dad would somehow, grow "up" of their ways and start to be able to actually commune properly in what we adolescents do on a daily basis? yEs it would be damn weird, but i think that it would make things better. tHey'd understand you every word and see logic from your sense but with better judgement. sO what's there to lose? iF you had a conversation where you were actually on the same level as your parents, wouldn't that be great? iNstead of having to stoop up to their "oh-so-responsibility-and-you-must-do-it-this-way-ridden" kind of thinking, wouldn't it be great to just be able to talk to them in how you talk? hAve them understand what you understand?
aCtually, come to think of it:
what are we growing up to become?
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