All work and no play makes Moony a sad case = =
Work work work...sounds like the Orc peon in Warcraft III.
Somehow, i am wondering if i have turned into a workaholic. My mind is almost 24/7 working on theories and reading up on stuff related to what i want to study in the future. It's as if all my pursuits in writing papers are based on that final goal that i have in mind: studying underlying human cognitive processes.
In the morning, i wake up and i start to think:
1) What's affecting my sleep rhythm?
2) Should i continue writing that music paper?
3) I should contact chewxy on that joint paper i intend to write with him...
4) Should i eat? (lol)
5) Postmodernism...
That's roughly my think list when i wake up in the morning. Though, i am extremely slow at making decisions in the morning, unless something urgently requires my immediate attention. I admit, i'm not a morning person, but that still does not stop my mind from thinking of these stuff. Right now i'm contemplating, is it all work related? Out of 5 things on my mind, 4 of them are like, i don't know, stuff that you should not have on your mind? Or is it normal to have these things on your mind?
Then in the afternoon, i usually have a few questions hanging on my mind:
1) How come that method is used...
2) How should i structure that course outline...
3) Why, why, why...
4) o2jam!!
Okay, it seems that o2Jam is in the equation now, hehe. And those questions, are always around, until late in the night, when i'm infront of my computer and typing and reading endless lines of stuff on the internet about cognitive science, lol. Then, my mind starts thinking in poems. oh, is that a sign of me talking to myself? 0_o...yeah maybe i do, lol. But i feel connected and more aware when i manage to pen down poetry about my surroundings, it's as if another level of awareness is around me.
Then, when it's break time and i have time to chill, what do i do:
1) o2jam, gaming...
2) journals!
3) blogging...
4) poetry...
5) thinking about cognition...
Yes, thinking about cognition is FUN to me. When you say time to chill and not think about work, i start thinking about debating theories, super complexed stuff, i just like solving and thinking out things, like mapping a huge web. It's challenging and fun for me. Does this show that i'm a workaholic? Is there a test or someting out there? o_0
Having fun...actually, come to think of it, i haven't been doing much "really fun" stuff lately. I still want to watch PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN, and i think it's not showing anymore *sobs*. So what do i do now? Okay, time to turn into a little kiddo and run around the house shouting to mummy and daddy that i want to go to the theme park! nah...i think i'll just drag out few of my friends that's been cooped up in their chicken dens too long, hehe :P (you know who you are XD).
Is it that hard to have fun? It can't be right? Or is my mind still in the motion of always thinking of stuff that i'm passionate about and not doing things that i can do just to have loads of fun? That seems like a prospecful answer. Good news is that holidays are coming soon. Bad news is that the last week is always that doomed, gloomy, sadistic, final week! It's the time where you spend hours on end digging deeper and deeper into your text book, trying to absorb every single detail, until how you folded the book, where you accidentally tore a page, where a pencil/pen mark is, which page you fell asleep on, etc..........
I think i seriously need a getaway to somewhere to chill out. Where? Outer space is just the perfect space. Waaa....of course in a spacesuit. :P
Enough with that joke, i think i'll just find some day to go to genting. I haven't been there in such a long time! WAAA...or maybe join a camp in the holidays....that would be real fun XD......
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