emote vs intellect

hmm...

i've always noticed how i somehow switch to intellectual ramblings when i get too overwhelmed by my emotions. Yes, i do have Feelings as well. I'm human after all. I've realized that this articulation not only helps me get some catharsis but it also serves for something that's counter-intuitive. It actually helps me run...

How in the world, i ask myself, can i run...? I've been doing it for such a long time that it's become embedded inside my "defensive" tactics or whatever you call it. This intellect somehow comes along to save the day if i get too worked up or..maybe what they call emo. It's something weird yet familiar.

I've always felt like i embody two sides of the same coin: one extremely emotion and another one which is some kinda intellectual foundry. Though, the two connect to each other in small yet significant ways. In the past few years i've discovered that a merge of the two can produce some very astounding results. Maybe, i'll not go into details. But actually, this is a clue to all my writings. I'm actually thinking and telling a story at the same time. So actually my ramblings might not make sense to others, but they make total sense to myself.