Give me an answer
I can't make sense of the words that are surging through my head. For now, i just have not the strength to re-arrange them and give them any sense at all. It seems like an endless stream of nonesense, but i know the feel of this trend. The light trembling of the ground and the shuddering wave of sounds that run through the halls filled with rioting emotions. Nothing does good in here, there is only broken logic. Emotions never make any logic, that is, if you don't want to make any sense of it. Things just happen and your brain starts firing in a long wired length of pathways. There is no path that leads to only the best of things; there always has to be something bad that comes with the best. It is only karma that we have set-backs along with success. There was, is and will never be anything such as a "happy ever after", that only happens in fairy tales and fairy tales don't exist.
Though, after all that talk of karma, i still cannot see the bright side. My thoughts only end up with the question "why". It is just like a child still in the craddle. He wants answers to everything, and now my mind has become that child, always asking "why". The good things never get to me, it's always those moments of anguish. Even more unforgiving, is the sense that things never will lighten up. Then sun goes down everyday and with it my well-being. But the sun, it never comes up again.
It's just too hopeless to ponder, so i just never stop asking. I keep on asking myself how it all came to this; asking why i have to go through all this; asking why it never stops. There just seems to be no end to this long-running sadness. It has bore a hole inside me, and nothing can fill it up. I want an answer. It would be so reassuring that there was some sign that this would all end, but i can't see one; i'm blind to the core and cold as ice, brittle and broken.
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